Teeter-Totter

What does balance mean to you?  If life is a teeter-totter, the ideal state leaves you with your feet swinging freely, a partner equally balanced, and a firm foundation for the pendulum give and take.

My Balanced Day

2 hours walking/hiking outside

1 hour yard work/house work

2 hours reading, meditating, writing, watching movies

2 hours cooking/eating

1 hour community service/time with child

8 hours working (preferably outdoors)

8 hours sleeping

 

How I Live Now

1 hour walking/hiking outdoors (usually 1/2 hour)

1 hour yard work/house work

1 hour cooking/eating

1 hour reading, writing, watching movies

1 hour with child

11 hours working (indoors)

8 hours sleeping

 

Making this kind of list is a good way to see where you are stuck on the ground or too high up in the air.  A balanced partner would be a nice addition to my life but nearly impossible with my current circumstance (stopped holding my breath on that), so whatever you love in life can help keep you closer to the right level.

Possibly because of job-related sensory deprivation and what I term “computer head” (a mild form of agitation/depression/spaciness brought on by too much screen time), the moments when I am in the real natural world I feel completely filled by watching luminous cumulus clouds, red-wing blackbirds, hawks, eagles, listening to chirping, frogs croaking, wind in trees all around me.  It’s like that is the unconditionally loving partner in my life keeping me from crashing to the ground.

Is there a way for me to meet all my obligations to child and self AND spend time being where I love to be?  I haven’t found it yet, but it exists in my mind teetering and tottering.

 

About Erin W

A sensitive plant, bamboo strong.
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2 Responses to Teeter-Totter

  1. Sharon says:

    Take a risk on finding an entirely new line of work. You just may discover that everything will not fall apart as you believed it would! Just do it. The universe can’t support you unless you put it into motion. 🙂

  2. Erin W says:

    I agree with you. Any suggestions of how to obtain health benefits plus make $14/hr without more than a BA? Everything I see that uses my abilities equals same amount or less, involves a daily 2-hour commute (1 hour each way) meaning I need to have somewhere for daughter to go after school. I’m open to suggestions. I just need to make them work. Landscaping or gardening I would love, but need to apprentice at around $12/hr, no benies, and seasonal work.

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