It’s been 17 days since my last blog post, an unusual state of wordlessness. Thanks to a gift from family, I was able to attend a beautiful weekend workshop guided by this team:
I came away from this break from my usual weekend work into immersion in techniques of wordlessness (music, drawing, Qijong, group and partnered listening), with a sense of grounded hope. It was one of those amazingly random groups of people gathered in the same moment in space and time that seemed to have overlapping life experiences and backgrounds. My experience was of no single dominant player in the group, and this allowed us to form fairly quickly into a resonant unit. There was talk among several participants of forming a quarterly gathering, and I hope that happens, as that kind of support around shared vulnerability is few and far between in my life.
All of us face many threshold experiences in life, with the ultimate one being the final transition of our body.
I learned there are things we can do to prepare for thresholds, and that willing them alone rarely works. Inviting others to join us is one major aspect, another is information gathering, and reflection on understanding what is ending and what is trying to be born.
The personal threshold of my current focus is shifting careers from something that no longer serves me in many ways to something that engages me joyfully. Following ones joy feels to me the hardest thing in life to do. Yet it is imperative to the soul.
Because I know I am happiest, most supported spiritually, and most engaged physically when in the natural world, I know it would be healthiest for me to head toward a livelihood inside that connection. As a step toward that threshold, I am studying the life’s work model of Michael J. Cohen’s Natural Attraction Ecology.
Will it be possible for me to:
1) Provide service to others,
2) Earn a living outdoors,
3) Set my own hours,
4) Pay my bills?
I have to surrender the answer to the great unknown for now, because I do not know what is possible. I only know I can take baby steps toward that reality for now by seeking folks willing to be “guinea pigs” as I study and practice techniques, continue to do my current job as a baseline until something shifts, and make sure I carve foundational daily time outside.
I believe our connection to the natural world is innate and essential to our well-being, but I wonder why some of us feel this connection as both transcendent and basic as breathing or drinking water, while others barely seem to notice?