Kindness is Not Optional

Success is going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.
~ Winston Churchill

I have learned as a composer chiefly through my mistakes and pursuits of false assumptions, not by my exposure to fonts of wisdom and knowledge.
~ Igor Stravinsky

Would you like me to give you a formula for success? It’s quite simple, really. Double your rate of failure.
~ Thomas J. Watson

Not failure, but low aim, is crime.
~ James Russell Lowell 

Listening to wind in trees today, I just had to post this note on failure. If failure is not reaching a goal, then I am guilty.  I aimed too high and decided not to go to Southern California to hike with Ultimate Hike on November 23, 2013.  I have been training for two months toward the goal of walking 26 miles in one day with a team of people I have never met on unfamiliar terrain with a course time limit after flying 5 hours in a metal tube and having raised $2500 minimum for a wonderful cause – CureSearch for better cancer treatments for those under age 20.

What the trees told me as they weave their whispers around the globe:  Kindness to self is not optional.  Failure is.  The sense of defeat I felt when making this decision would have in the past put me under the blankets for a few days, giving up my healthy activity routines, perhaps taking a day off work and consuming large quantities of comfort foods. Today, I feel only kindness toward myself for having aimed higher than I was comfortable.

In the course of aiming, I raised $1225 toward the cause and walked 20 miles in a single day completely solo.  For those who have donated or intend to donate, it is important I let you know what my plan is.

I intend to create a 26-mile route on Whidbey Island that includes wooded trails and roads and complete this self-designed “course” on November 23, 2013.  This will allow me to synchronize my efforts with the Pacific Crest Trail team meeting at the Big Bear Lake region.  Now if the weather is absolutely horrible or with 40 mph winds I endured during my 20-mile walk, an alternate date will be December 3, 2013, the 9-year anniversary of my now thriving daughter’s cancer diagnosis in the distant rear-view mirror.

I will also continue to fundraise using My Fundraising Link until the group deadline January 10, 2014.

Currently I am attempting to convert a web link into tear-away tabs on a flyer to post around my community, but until then online networking is the way forward.

The Pacific Crest Trail team has raised almost $55,000 so far!!

My intentions for myself have become clearer to me over the past two months.  Essentially I wanted to perform “surgery” on the part of my trauma experience related to my daughter’s cancer treatment and transmute all that happened during those two years into some sort of gift to the lives of others.  I also wanted to meditate, and endurance walking without the distraction of earbuds or pressure of a time limit achieves this.  I have learned about myself, my asthmatic lungs’ limits, what to do better for future hikes, and recognize I am not quite prepared to meet this goal yet.

Some day I will get to the Pacific Crest Trail, but that day will not be within a month.

About Erin W

A sensitive plant, bamboo strong.
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