Finally letting go of beliefs that hold us back or make our load heavier, we can write down those things we’ve carried during 2017 and burn them in a glass container outdoors before entering the New Year. I’m doing that today.
On Solstice, I asked for what message I most need to hear in the new year, and I pulled this card with quote from a favorite teacher.
Then I meditated on where to bring greater focus in the upcoming year and received the answer: “Pay closer attention to your relationship with the moon.” So that I will. (Divine Feminine again)
On New Year’s Eve, today, I asked from my Medicine Cards for a symbol of guidance for 2018 and pulled this juicy card.
If you pulled Swan, it ushers in a time of altered states of awareness and of development of your intuitive abilities. Swan medicine people have the ability to see the future, to surrender to the power of Great Spirit, and to accept the healing and transformation of their lives.
If you are resisting your self transformation, (uh…yeah) relax; it will be easier if you go with the flow. Pay attention to your hunches and your gut knowledge, and honor your female intuitive side.
Source: Medicine Cards Santa Fe: Bear and Company, 1988)
Accept gracefully. Enter Dreamtime. I have heard the message.
The swan also echoes so beautifully the returning power of the Divine Feminine so many are seeing as a core long-term shift happening in the present, reflected in the tug-of-war between MeToo Movement and our current sociopolitical landscape.
One of the most famous tales of the swan is the Danish from The Ugly Duckling by Hans Christian Andersen, who amazingly I discovered only this month was befriended by some of my ancestors, and I was even able to locate a photograph taken of them together online.
So my ancestors I feel are standing graciously behind this guidance for me. I searched through my boxes of books and found a hardbound copy of Hans Christian Andersen’s complete stories gifted to me when I was 4 years old (!) by my grandfather. I actually learned to read at age 4, but holy mackerel that’s like pouring a fire hose of water on a seedling. Now, all these years later, I am returning to these stories and appreciating them.
The number 39 according to several numerology sites is full of 3s (even its root sum, 3+9=12 and 1+2=3) which is a number associated with creative expression and direct wisdom from ascended masters or highly evolved spiritual beings. Number 9 apparently means benefiting humanity. So 39 is a number for a “lightworker” or someone who uses creative expression through spirit to benefit and/or bring comfort and healing to others.
I have trouble remembering my dreams, but the last intensely clear dream I remember having was during 2012 when I dreamed I was an apprentice to a master shaman. So I’ve always thought of this as a sign maybe not everyone can be a master lightworker, but maybe I could be an apprentice to one. I have a strong desire to apprentice on many levels in both the physical and spiritual realms, but not sure how to go about this without sacrificing my ability to support self and child.
I feel like this has always been my core ideal – to use my abilities to be more of direct service to others, but during 2017 I turned inward a great deal and honed my creativity in solitude, letting go of many of my past ideals to benefit others or even be in relationship to others.
From all of the above, I bring a vision for 2018 that I will work to open up my awareness, to allow relationship, to tune in further to my strong intuitive abilities, and bring my creative work of knitting, writing, and nature connection work into some broader platform to benefit others. That’s the scoop, and I’m sticking with it.
Happy New Year to everyone in blog land.